The Unchangeable is never to be found -part 2

Somehow we are always trying to establish a continuum in our Life. The things we like we invite to stay with us forever and at the same time we immediately want to get rid of the shadow parts. We always look for the unchangeable in the changeable. But now what when we are seriously looking for an answer on: Who am I? Of course, even in our meditations we act the same as we always do: we position our-self as the unchangeable, watching the changeable. This way we still act like we are used to.

Look at a baby that is helplessly waiting for care. Without any assistance the newborn will die pretty soon. From our first moments in this world we need care, on all levels of existence. For a grown up it is rather simple. You are hungry and you find a way to buy some food and you will eat it soon after. Now look at the difference between you as a baby and as a grown up.

English: A young girl kisses a baby on the cheek.

During the years you have learned to talk, to walk, to plan, to work, to cook, even to digest properly. You have learned countless methods to build yourself a working physical state with on top of the cake a partner to love, a comfortable home, proper education, a job , money, healthcare, a pension-plan. You easily can fill up this list with many other desires. Picture yourself as the little baby and now. Over the years you have build up a full body-worldsystem of identification, all set up in a perfect functioning dream of space and time.

For a baby there is no world. Even objects appear to be blurry colour-patterns. It is not made to survive on itself. But from day one the body will learn itself to survive. Identifications will grow, building up safety, each at a time. Noticeably the Idea of a separate existing body in a world of objects will appear to be. And this is how it should function otherwise the body, THE IDEA, would die. The body is there and has learned to live and survive. It is perfectly fit for it.

English: Paper Kite (Idea leuconoe) Deutsch: W...

For a body the natural knowledge and learning-curve how to survive has to be born out of something deeper. And that is the Idea of separation, and therefore the urge to protect itself. How come? Well, in essence the birth of the body is THE EXPRESSION of separation itself already. This whole physical state IS build on fear of death and is urging itself to overcome death, because IT undoubtedly KNOWS there is just LIFE, as in CONSCIOUSNESS itself! Why would your heart beat, why would your longs function, why are your organs and blood doing its job. Yes, they all work together to survive death!

The physical world is build upon THE IDEA of mortality. Everything has been created to live a long and happy life with the avoidance of pain and sorrow leading to sickness and death. Deep down we know all this. Birth and death are part of the same IDEA. We even create the idea of an eternal soul, a heaven or a someone who can reach enlightenment, or we like to live the buddha as the unchangeable watcher on the hill. Even then, we want to survive.

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And it is all so very natural….

When you sit on your couch and you start to meditate like the best you can there is one thing left to understand. You are THIS, the IDEA that created the unchangeable in the changeable. This has to be seen, This has to be understood. Probably now you think. ah.. I know what he means: I am both, I am all there is, I am beyond the world of objects and therefore beyond the changeable in the unchangeable. This is the tricky mind, because now you have to take the next step. A step into the abyss. And like a teenage girl who wants to experience her first love, you first will know when you have taken the invitation to jump into the ocean.

 

Is this your final step? Wake-up first!

“One final step. Not a small one, a big one. A huge step I have to make, but then I have reached the state of self-realisation.” This is what I often hear from seekers looking for Truth. But is this the way how you will get what you want? Just making one final effort like fixing the one light in the Christmas tree to let all the other lights shine at the same time? This is what I explained to you last week. Now I will show you that in reality there are no steps to be taken. You are the problem till YOU have realised that.

 

It is rush-hour and you are busy hurrying to get home in time for dinner. You are driving by car and all around you it is packed with cars. Everyone is eager to reach their destinations as soon as possible. Now if you would observe yourself in direct view by satellite,, like on Google Earth, you would see thousands of cars driving around each other like ants doing their massive work. There is a constant activity of cars on the move. Picture it.

Now you get caught in a severe traffic-jam. Your lane of cars is coming to a standstill. There you are, waiting on spot x, not even moving a single inch. Well, at that very moment: are you still considering yourself part of the ongoing traffic-event, or are you out? Now when you look from above there is still an immense moving of the ants, but you and some others, the 1% of the travelers during rush-hour seem to have stopped. So, are you in or out of the game?

Evening Rush Hour

Evening Rush Hour (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

You are THE cause of everything

Sure, now you see yourself as part of the rush-hour event. In fact you are one of the ‘victims’ even. You even might be part of the cause of the traffic-jam, an accident. So in a spiritual sense: is it you waiting for the tow-car entering the playfield to fix the situation, an activity that will let you rejoin the riding party? Or were you already part of the situation and was your car, coming to a standstill, still part of the flow of traffic itself? Even when your car didn’t move? When you look carefully, using your satellite – view, you would find your non-driving car to be a major part of the rush-hour itself. Perhaps now you would notice, you even are the cause of the traffic-jam itself!

In the middle of a traffic-jam

This is actually how you should act on your trip for self-realisation. As soon as you come to a point that you realise you are “on your way” to find answers(s) on ‘Who am I’ you already have come far beyond a point of no return. In the middle of a traffic jam, you wait and act accordingly: there is nothing else to do. Just realise this: the fact that you have positioned yourself in a car that is stranded in a traffic-jam, doesn’t mean you are not already part of the process to find answers. That last part you are looking for to connect the dots, that last part of action that lets you come home from your trip, is just there because your Idea made it to appear. In fact YOU make the traffic come to a standstill by your Idea of the one missing %, so that you can think you are no longer part of the traffic, while in reality you just have to realise you already have connected the dots. Way long before even there were rush-hours and christmas-lights.

The final step is the one you made a long time ago

You might consider Self-realisation as a moment of a sudden experience of Truth: finally the dots are connected. Before that moment there were just a few glimpses of a universal truth and now it can’t be missed: you have realised your true potential, Truth itself. The parts have become one piece. This is what I often read. You, the seeker of God, self-realisation or what you might name your path for ultimate knowledge, is often promised a step into light from darkness. That sounds interesting, but are you in the dark?

Perhaps you remember the string of lights in a Christmas tree. A whole year-long the lights were put back in a box, safely kept on a shell in the attic, and now, the next Christmas-time coming up, it refused to work. With a good touch of Christmas-stress you started to check every single light. Most of the time you would find one light not to be connected, preventing all other lights to work. You gave all attention you had and now it worked! From no lights at all into one huge shining colourful bright Christmas tree.

First you had no light and by fixing just one connection, they all would shine. All the lights on the string were depended on that one single candle that was on the run. In this case 99 of the 100 candles were functioning properly, but couldn’t come to work because they were depended of the one candle that had stepped out of the game.

This is what I often hear: just one courageous step and I will know. It is just the one step that is so hard to make. And it is true, in your world of Idea’s you are so much busy looking for that one lose candle that it has become part of the obsession. Fix the one and all will shine.

Candles

Candles (Photo credit: magnuscanis)

Waiting for mr 100

But is it? Is that the ultimate truth? Like there is nothing, just potential? Just the other 99 working lights ready to work, waiting for mr. 100? In this case you would say: I have everything ready in my house, waiting for the party. Everything is there. You are just waiting for the guests to arrive. Or like the string of lights is ready to invite the electricity to do its work. Still, this somehow suggests that everything, but one, is ok. It is ready and now you aim for the last candle, closing the dots.

Now at the same time this situation implies that 99% in your spiritual believe-system is depending on the 1 % that makes it to work. But why should you have 99% waiting for just 1% to make it function? Well this also happens when you download a file into your PC and the last 1% holds and wait to be downloaded. In this case the 99% has no use, but in your human potential it is something completely the other way around. It is just your Idea that you need one step to realise your true potential. In fact you already made that one a long time ago.

In part 2 I will get more into this! I will publish it next thursday

 

You are always responsible. No matter what!

In my last articles I talked about how you should deal with ‘sorrow and pain ‘. Both an invitation to, andeven essential parts of the road that will show you ”your’  true nature. Difficult situations in Life ‘happen’ to all of us. And each time it is a challenge  as in a great possibility to realize ‘who WE are.’ When I talk about Love, the Heart, Blessing and Bliss, I get nice comments, likes and other remarks. The other way around, talking about pain, suffering and even Death, it suddenly keeps quiet. Too bad because it is really of the utmost importance to understand that the impact of unwanted confrontations with Life are the gateway to Heaven itself. Let me share this following conversation with you all.

Q: I feel pretty much uncomfortable with your latest stories. Of course I know that Life confronts me with pain and even suffering, it is part of it. It is just that I want to concentrate on the wonderful things Life has to offer. I don’t want to Identify with sorrow and the inevitable bumpy events that pass by.

A: Without Death there would be no Life. Death has compassion with you. Every time when Life hits you, something Dies, and there is a natural act of surviving this sudden Death. You then try to overcome your problems by Living them or, you avoid them in one way or another. Avoiding even means you often don’t realize that you have put yourself into a difficult, painful place. You even don’t know you did this yourself in the first place. You get sick, not on purpose, you lose a beloved one in the cause of an accident, you lose your job, your house all because of the economy.

In all these cases it is still YOU and THE WORLD as in two connected but separate parts of existence. This Idea of Reality took you far, far away from Home.

Estes Park in Rocky Mountains, Colorado.

Estes Park in Rocky Mountains, Colorado. (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Q: So we are even responsible for what can strike us in Life unexpectedly. Like a hurricane for instance?

A: YOU are always responsible, no matter what!

Q: That isn’t fair to me. When a hurricane wipes out my house, or even takes one of my loved ones away, I really have nothing to do with it.

A: Where would the hurricane be without you?

Q: What you mean?

A: Where would the hurricane be without you? Well come on, get deeper into this conversation. You don’t want to blame yourself for the turmoil the hurricane brings into your life and I say, well where would the hurricane be without you?

Q: It would still be there, but I would witness it from a distance, like on television.

A: This means you are still there. When I watch the news on TV about the latest hurricane-disasters in Oklahoma I am still part of the event itself. As a witness, clear. I even haven’t been In Oklahoma in my life, I don’t know anyone there, but I am still watching the news. So this makes me part of the event. In third hand, but it still shows up in my’ Life. This appearance makes me responsible, no matter what. It is me who let it happen.

Q: I am going on a hike in the Rocky Mountains this summer. During that few weeks I don’t watch the news, no radio, and my telephone is just for emergencies and to check the weather. Lets say, a tsunami would strike Indonesia during that time, and I don’t know of it. Would I still be responsible for the disaster?

A: You are not responsible for the things that never show up in your life. What isn’t there, doesn’t exist. Try to understand this thoroughly!

Q: Then I come home, and I read the news about the tsunami?

A: Inviting this news into your Life is already identifying with it. Is this wrong? Of course not. You let it show up. You could go and live in a monastery in Nepal, no television, internet even no telephone around. And even then, or even in those Rocky mountains, everything that rises up as ‘your world ‘ is your responsibility. It is neither the government or God that is responsible for what YOU invite YOURSELF into Life. YOU are THAT and THAT is YOU. You are the one that let it be there. Always!

Tropical Cyclone Bingiza

Tropical Cyclone Bingiza (Photo credit: NASA Goddard Photo and Video)

Q: Now that I know that I am responsible for everything that shows up in my Life, even the tsunami or hurricane I watch on the news, how would this get me closer to my true nature?

A: Everything, every moment is an invitation to celebrate Life. This Knowing: this ALL is ME. This ME is ALL there is, this is where YOU come into action. At first there is a World with a hurricane and you watch the news, then there just will be a hurricane and then it will just be YOU. At that point YOU will KNOW.

How Life becomes Love: my story , part 1

The World around often seems so hard, so cruel. While at the same time we feel so gentle, so humble, ready to share our love with everything that visits our Life. I agree that sickness, poverty, unemployment, bankruptcy, divorces and death are not the life-experiences we prefer but, at the same time, we all get our fine share of crisis while being on planet earth. What can we do about it? Or better, do we need to do something about it? It is a question I often get. A quest of Life I remember myself so well. I have been there. All the way. Nearly all of us invite confrontation in life, and then we ask ourselves this question: why is this world not more to my liking, not more how I would have wished it for? Why can it be so harsh at moments?

The good part is: there is an explanation to everything. Let us start where we all start to live our problems. Yes, we all because we all learn to act in this world like being a person in a body, called whatever is our name. When we are at the age of 2 or 3, in the short period when we have learned the words ‘yes’ and ‘no’, we also know our name, speaking it out loudly while pointing at our chest. From here we find our-self as a separated person in the form of a body as part of the world in which we live. Basically this is the identification where most of us will stay till death ends this manifestation. In fact our name, and this yes or no, are the result of identification. An identification that will come up as the setup for our defenses to survive in an outside world that, acts unexpected and not always in our favor.

Worlds Apart

Worlds Apart (Photo credit: Sony200boy)

We go to school, learn skills, get jobs, a career, a partner, children, a house, health-insurance and a pension-plan: from children-playground to huge castles with sometimes even an empire. The bigger our castle, the better defense we have, the more power we think we need to withstand Life. It sounds harsh but, mainly this is what we do. This is our life: we just want to survive in a world that can and will bring us unexpected disasters.

We might be lucky and build up a castle with the best defenses of the world. Somehow there never even shows up an enemy near the gates. Life begins and ends like a field of flowers. It happens. We all know one or two like that. Unfortunately its just for the happy few of us because, usually our invaders are stronger and more cunning than we are. They exactly know how to take down our defenses. They exactly know how to press the button to open the gate. Just one single event in a split of a second and our defenses will go down. We usually immediately start to repair our walls and canons. Now even stronger with more escape-routes. We take other jobs, other partners and everything that we need to feel ourselves more comfortable with. We even sometimes invite a more spiritual path to understand the meaning of Life. Again unfortunately we just start to check that same invading world that, a moment ago has taken down our walls. While first we now should ask ourselves the question: why did we build that castle in the first place? The realisation that our bodily appearance, as an object in the middle of a world of other objects, is already our biggest defensive castle. It is still one giant step too far at that moment. And here we rebuild again and, again.

Green life

No, first we try to become friends with the world. We invite the world in our life. From problems we learn, we call them challenges and so we start to refurbish our houses with furniture from which we secretly hope it will last a life-time. We give them names like feelings, heart, blessing and connection. All pondered with affection. From now on we share our power with the world. Our new defenses we call love and acceptance. We have given up the power trip by not fighting every unwanted phenomena that enters our life. We have found a new way to deal with life-events, to embrace them. Good? Yes but, just for some.

Sometimes we get struck by lightning and there seems no escape. Nowhere to go and nowhere to come. No escape? Is there really nothing at that very moment of loss. No there is not. Better, this having no escape, no tools left to rebuild our castle, is our  freedom! Our loss can become the beginning of a new adventure. THE best adventure of our live is ready to embark now.

PART 2 in a few weeks.

Silence, Inner Peace and Beach – Relaxation!

Last week I stumbled upon some stories of people that had taken a so-called re-trait. Just a few days away from work and family for a weekend of spiritual rest and relaxation. You also could go to a warm and sunny holiday – destination along the Mediterranean but, no a re-trait is something with a more deeper meaning than some profound beach-relaxation. Often the advertising words are ‘ silence ‘ and ‘ serene ‘ with the hope to uncover some long forgotten  parts of yourself. But more often silence, quietness, inner-peace,  are words included as beneficial parts of the journey to get to know your true self. True, or still perhaps a stubborn Identification with silence and inner-peace?

Q: I have done quite a few re-traits in wonderful ashrams. On that spots I did a lot of  meditation and yoga. For a long time for me meditating within the boundaries of a group with the same interest was an important part of my process to self-realisation. What is your opinion about it?

A: If this is part of your life, and you enjoy the relaxation, just to be able to handle modern busy life, I would say: give it a try. Why not!

Q: And the meditation, yoga, mantra-singing?

This Statue of Shiva is Approximately 65 feet ...

This Statue of Shiva

A: I know where you want to trick me into but, I am sorry, I am not rejecting what you prefer to do in life. When it comes to relaxation, it just can be wonderful to visit these spiritual re-traits. I mention spiritual, because that is often the context of these breaks from daily life. But what is really your question?

Q: I have a few hesitations…I..

A: Hold on, I know. I have been doing enough  meditation myself, years ago. I even have done Yoga  with my western body, and that all at very silent peaceful places. I can tell you, I became very relaxed and I loved to do it, but as in a part of my road to self-realisation, it has brought me not what I was hoping for. 

Little Exercise

I give you a little exercise. During the next weeks, three times a day at 9.00, 14.00 and 19.00, where ever and with whom you are, you hold with everything you do. At that moment, and it doesn’t matter where you are, on your work, at the mall, in your house, the car, you stop the clock ticking. For a short period you just observe: what do you see, is it a silent beach or the platform of a crowded subway-station? What are the thoughts that are passing by and how do you feel? Are you with company or alone. Were you in a conversation or just listening to music? Are you jogging or, sitting on the coach, having sex (yes, even then), or whatever comes to you. Include everything. The good and the bad. When you were in a bad mood, just experience that. Don’t change the impulse.

 

Raven, with her hood down, meditating.

Raven, with her hood down, meditating.

And don’t close your eyes. Leave them open. What you see, smell, touch, feel, taste, think, include everything and than take in the one that is watching all this. The observer is always part of the observation. Therefore the observer is the observation and that what is being observed at the same time. Yes at the same time, because don’t forget to include the idea of time. This is the moment, everything and all.

When some sort of activity comes up, include it also. Go on with observing without interfering as long as you like. Now within all this, the realisation will be there that this is it.  This and all there is, is what you are and only exists because you are all this and you have invited it to be. This is beyond silence and peace. It includes everything and all.

After a while you realise that the one observing the observer and that what is being  observed never leaves. It is always there. I am alive.   

Get rid of Fear, and be Alive!

Is it so natural to wake up in the morning, finding your clothes on the chair where you left them? You find yourself in the same bed, the same spot in the same room. The same body, the same you. Nothing has changed. The night has gone and the day-light is inviting you to become active. That is what we know, repeating the same experience over and over. Creating an existence of reality. But is it so natural? I got a question from someone.

Q: Every morning I find myself being the same me, the same body on the same spot as where I went asleep for the night. Lately I think: how self-evident is this actually?

A: You wake up, aware of the same body, the same you, because You want it to be like that. What do you remember of your first weeks, months, being ‘ in’ this ‘ same ‘ body?

Happy

Happy (Photo credit: Wikipedia)

Q: Nothing. Looking at some childhood-pictures bring back some memories of the moments the pictures were taken. Then I’m about 2 years of age.

A: What do you think made your body to wake up in the morning. In the same bed, the same spot as where you left it?

Q: My guess is, that it had its sleep. The body has its own rhythm.

A: Good. Your body has its own rhythm. And although you can’t remember anything about the first few months of your life, your body was already there according your relatives that can testify that.

So you already were around it seems. Point is: You can’t remember! So who is the one that remembers and knows it is around now?

Q: That is a part of me, my consciousness, or consciousness itself that let me realise I am here, alive. I am aware of me!

A: You are consciousness itself. True. It has always been and will always be. So even in the first months of your bodily existence it was already there. So what made you ‘ forget’ this first stages of your Life?

Q: My brain wasn’t so well-developed, maybe?

A: NO! You were not yet identified. Better, you were not aware being around! There was no Idea of being a you. There was no Idea of a you in a body amongst all other bodies in a daily repeating world!

Q: Why wasn’t I aware of this?

A: Simply because you were not afraid to die. There was no one to die! Slowly but certain you, the watcher, awareness, got involved in the Idea of a separate you. You start to be aware of others! Of a world around. You create your bodily identification. Realise that before all this, you had no body! Now you realise your body, and by then in separation, it got its own rhythm, and started to save itself from the first moment on. The heart, the lungs, everything was working to reach the next moment in time. It was programmed to survive. We just live with the Idea not to die. That is your Identification. You as a separated body trying to live forever.

Happy baby Emeth

Happy baby Emeth (Photo credit: Tim & Selena Middleton)

Q: So the Idea of time and body, related to each other, is just there because I let it happen? Again and again?

A: It is this Idea of a separated individual that needs to survive death, that lets you live the bodily experience in the first place. Give up this separation, realise you are always around, body or nobody. I guarantee that you will start to realise your true nature stronger and stronger. And this without the fear of death.

 

 

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